I want to dance

feel the sweat

feel the beat

forget everything else

besides

the bass 

so low

my rib cage rattles

have a beer

or three

dancing

moving

forgetting

forgiving

moving past

the irrelevant past

feel free

like myself

don't worry

about anything

or anyone

else.

not being ridiculous

to gain attention

 moving

to just slip

unnoticed

into the 

oblivion

of the dark

surrounded by 

people who

i don't know

don't want to know

don't care to know

don't need to know

because

i have myself

and the music

and that's all

i need

no need

for love

or snow

or light

just hitting

the road

of moving past

the past

i'm running from it

but not to stifle

the urges of 

sadness

no

i'm running from the past

because i've learned

from it

and i don't ever want 

to revisit it

the faster i run

the farther i get

and the farther i get

the cleaner 

my mind becomes

i am strong

i am independent

and i don't 

need someone

else

to tell me that

i don't need someone

to feel complete

and maybe

that's why i'm having 

such a hard time

moving on

because i pity you

not because i 

want to be with you

but because i pity

whoever ends up

with your tangled mess

whoever

tries to unravel 

the tangled webs

of insecurity

deep within 

you dark soul

the person who

values them self

so little 

that they give you 

themselves

because its 

the only way

they think

they can 

get you

to love them

the person

who doesn't realize

their own self worth

to realize

that you will always

always

value yourself

over anything else

i pity you

i pity the forlorn souls

who are stuck

in the dark of the clubs

not to find themselves

within the music

but to find someone

because to them

they need someone

to be seen 

as something

i pity those

who don't realize

that they 

already are

something

that someone

touching them

does not make them 

something

what makes them

something

is what's inside their minds

and that

the more they search

in the dark recess of others

they lose 

more and more

of themselves

every

single 

time

that every touch

steals a little

bit more

until 

they are nothing more

than a shell

that they have lost 

what and who

they truly are 

because 

they have given it away

they sold their souls

in search of yours

how does that make 

you feel

to know 

that instead of completing someone

you ruined them

how does it make you feel

to know

that instead of being completed

every time

a new girl 

comes around

you,

yourself

lose the same amount

that in your struggles

to find yourself

you are losing yourself

piece

by fucking 

piece

because

until you value

yourself

you will have nothing

i will pity you

because i know

i deserve more

and that the next person

who will get 

part of my soul

isn't going 

to be 

the random 

guy from Tinder

or down the bar

or from my 

class

it's not 

just going to be

some person

whom i connect with

on a purely

surface

and shallow

level

it will be someone

who deserves it

someone 

who doesn't complete me

but compliments me

values me

and who i am

and realizes

that 

he loves me

before he lets me go

who has not lost himself

and is using me

to forge the path

in his own dark mind

no

it will be someone

who understands that 

even without me

he is strong

independent

and something to be 

proud of

because until 

you value yourself'

how can you value others

and how

can you expect others

to value you?

i pity your

need

to find something

in the beat

besides mental solace

your need for body heat

because eventually

someone elses body heat

will be all you have