Sometimes, I feel like I can't win. Do one thing awesomely, fail at five others.

Awesome at my job? Can't see friends, gaining weight, feeling self conscious, constantly sick, and lonely. At least I get to see my family every now and then.

Sucky at my job? Don't even want to go there. Because I won't be.

I just need to learn to balance. I learned how to balance before, and I can learn how to balance now. I will learn how to balance now. I will not fail at anything. Any longer.